Floodgates are open

My previous post today had a completely unexpected result. I am officially a wreck. Been spending most of my day sitting on the bathroom floor at work, and crying hysterically. Evidently I needed to fully talk about it in order to deal with it and start healing. I would give anything to have our baby back.

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